~ coming out of love ~

it is always dark in the beginning.  

when movement begins, form manifests creation.

and curiosity is born...

Awe.... Ain't that precious?? 

for anyone who has ever known love,

there are two possibilities:

either you have established a place and ideal of what it is,

OR..

you have absolutely no idea what happened and question your own existence as a reasoning human. much like our fellow planet dweller, the male octopus..

and while the male may see himself as getting the short end of the stick.... the female is often the one who is left to clean up the mess...

THIS!

all in all, disappointments from love come in all different flavors...

how deeply it impacts you is based on several factors:

#1 - How good are your entry skills? 

#2 - How long can you pretend you are normal....

#3  how well you can overlook the faults that begin to show...

#4 how well you click on those unmentionable levels...

#5 - if safe lines get pushed...

(Bit of friendly advice... DON'T!!!)

#6 - The most important - how honest can you be with absolutely no boundaries? 

All in all,

I find the most beautiful aspect of love and such 

is the utter vulnerability that emerges when two people find each other 

who have walked similar roads and understand without words..

 In this life and past ones... 

It is a Gift.  A Gift two people give each other in which time is irrelevant.

Unfortunately, 

sometimes its too much to handle...

It IS Completely possible for two people to click too well... it becomes scary....

The Synchronicity becomes something that is not understood.

I searched and searched and searched and could find no term to identify this phenomena.

basically, 

...and the more levels you meet and gel on, the harder it becomes to come out of it.... 

And at this stage in life, I am beginning to heed the wise words of the elder teachers of the past:

I know, it sounds depressing.... 

But there is hope for those who have not yet experienced such deception and heartache.

And to those, I will heed this piece of advice:

If he falls asleep like this thinking of you...

And touches you like this...

Here is the most honest, sage advice anyone can give you:

HOLD ONTO IT AND DON'T FUCK IT UP DUMMY!!!

I wish someone would have told me that... 

Because if you fuck it up, this is the kind of thing you will hear going forward:

To which my 'honest' reply, in the words of a very wise man i once knew is:

UGH.

~ from the shadows ~